Good Bye 2008!

It's New Years Eve! and I am thankful that this year over. 2008 was not a happy year. We lost a lot this year.... Starting in January, my dog Raven passed away. Just talking about her my eyes fill with tears. I miss her a lot.. she was such a good dog.. I'm not sure why she was taken from us so soon. I guess we should be thankful that we had 6 great years with her. About two weeks later in February.. my Aunt Clonda's Pug, Jordan, passed away.. that was definitely rough time in my mom's household. As time went on, it got a little easier.

Then April came, Diego and I receive the most exciting news... we were going to be parents. I was scared to death.. but excited as I could possibly be. From the day I found out, I began to worry.. what if it was too good to be true. I never really felt pregnant. I tried convincing myself that I'm just being silly and everything would be fine. With my luck, of course it wasn't fine.. not fine at all. I got the let down of my life. I found out exactly how traumatic a miscarriage really is. I always felt terrible for women who went through that sort of thing.. but I never knew what they actually went through.. now I do.

The summer months were a little rough.. I was completely jealous of every baby.. and every woman with a baby bump. I couldn't help but selfishly whisper to myself.. I hate you. Then I would just tell myself, that they very well could have gone through what I went through in the past. As time went on... I got better.. especially when people I really care about announced their pregnancies and/or had babies.. I figure everything happens for a reason and our time will come sooner or later.

October came.. and Diego lost his job. That was a little stressful, but has turned out to not be such a terrible thing. My cousin moved in, which helps... and we manage our money well, so everything is ok on that front.

Then November... the loss of Diego's grandmother, Modesta. It was very sudden, which made it that much more difficult to accept. It was such a hard time, especially since the holidays were right around the corner. I can't say that everyone is heeled.. or will be heeled anytime soon. Realizing everything she will not be here for, makes it extremely tough. We miss her terribly and wish she was still here with us.

2008 was not all bad news! I found out that all my families are expanding! My family, Diego's family.. and my family of friends! Starting back in March.. I found out that my friend, Brandy was expecting.. and Aliya joined us for Halloween! My best friend from Elementary, Kimberly, announced she was pregnant.. Jax Parker Jacobson will be here in April! Next I believe came my cousin Jennifer! Her boyfriend, John, purposed!! John and Lyla (his daughter) will now be a part of our crazy family!! Next up, our nephew Jackson.. bee-bopped into the house sporting.. a shirt that stated he was to be a big brother soon! Baby Girl Cohen will be here in May! Then it was Stephanie's turn! Yay! She's getting married too! Her and James will be tying the knot in 2010. Last but not least.. My friend Ashley announced (yesterday actually!) that her son Gavin was going to have a sibling!

Sooo... Here's to 2009! Please be better than 2008. Let the only loss be the bulge around my waist! Please make sure that everyone stays healthy and happy.. and if you could.. see to it that I too have receive a healthy bun in my oven :D

I wish everyone a Happy New Year!

Please be careful tonight and watch out for all those crazies on the road!

'til next year peeps! I'm Out!

Freaky Stuff

Some of you may know that I worked for a doctor's office at the professional building at St. David's for 5 years, right out of high school. On Friday, we took a break from the Wii (yeah.. we actually turned it off for a few minutes) and we switched the tv over to the cable.. and the news happened to be on. There was a breaking story, and I noticed reporter was standing outside of my old office building. So I listened on.. and come to find out there was a shooting! I was freaked out... because I still keep in close contact with most of my old co-workers. I was praying that none of my friends were involved. They didn't release any names but said that the office was on the 3rd floor.. so I was relieved. Our office was on the 1st floor.

I emailed my old office manager today to see if they were there when everything went down. She said that they were closed that day.. since it was the day after Christmas. One of the doctors I worked for was there doing some work though..

Apparently, the shooter was in a 10 year relationship with the employee and she had broken up with him 3 months ago. She had a restraining order against him, and she was being walked to her car everyday by someone just in case he was out there. He walked into the office, argued with her.. and then shot and she killed her. Sooo sad! She had been working there for 9 years.. and she died right there in front of all of her coworkers. I can't imagine how they must feel.

That story just really freaked me out.. so I had to share.

Crappy Day

Today is just an all around crappy day!

First off, today is my first day back at work.

After 9 days of staying up late, sleeping in and hanging out all day

I absolutely hated waking up today!!

Secondly, today would have been my due date.

So that alone has me feeling sad and bummed out.

I just keep thinking how different our lives could have been right now..

All the what if's and why us's keep running through my mind.

Last but not least....

Today they had a refrigerator clean out here at work,

and I missed the reminder email..

because I have 9 days worth of emails piled up in my work inbox..

They threw out my delicious Salt Lick left overs that I was looking forward to!!

I'm not a very happy person today.

I'm Ready for Christmas!!!

I am sooo thankful that today is my last day of work!!!
I have not had a long break since I got married over a year ago.
Tomorrow starts 9 days off for me! and I only had to request 3 days off!
I know it's going to go by so fast.. but I am going to enjoy every second!
Steph is on her way to Austin, can't wait to see her this evening!
Yay! I'm in a good mood :D


I may or may not be posting anything during my time off..
so if I don't.. Merry Christmas to Everyone!!

Congrats SIL!

Yay! for weddings :D

My sister in law Stephanie has a fiance!

James popped the big question last weekend,

I couldn't be happier for the two of them!!

They are thinking of getting married March 2010..

That makes 2 weddings for me within the next year-ish :D

James and Steph at our wedding:

Wedding planning is stressful as can be.. and planning an Austin wedding while living in Virginia just adds that little cherry to the top! So Steph, I will be of an assistance you might need!

Christmas Tree Farm

Yesterday, Diego and I went out to Elgin to the Evergreen Farms and cut down our Christmas tree.. We had been wanting to do this for the last few years but we always settle with Home Depot! We decided to make a little trip out of it and went to go eat at Meyer's BBQ. I wouldn't recommend it. I haven't eaten at the other BBQ places in Elgin, but I was not impressed with Meyers. But hey.. the tea was good!

So we got to the farm.. we drove straight there! I was happy about that because normally we get lost when we don't know where we are going! At first, we were not sure how everything worked, but we got some help and we walked (by choice, we could have ridden the tractor) down to the fields. I was wanting to get a Leyland Cypress.. instead of a pine tree this year, because I hate all the needles getting stuck in the carpet! So we walked through rows and rows of trees! No Leyland Cypress to be found.

We must have walked around for 30 minutes, finally we saw a lady that worked there and asked her.. and she pointed to 2 small rows of the Cypress trees. They were heavily picked through, and we thought we weren't going to find our tree :( Then she came back and pointed to two other rows, where there were a few standing at perfect height. It took us a while to narrow down the options.. but we finally found our tree :D

As Diego reached for his gloves to start sawing away.. he realized that at some point he dropped one of his gloves! Bummer! So we thought heck, let's just go back and look for it. Of course, we never found it... but the tree was not at all difficult to cut, so it wasn't a big deal.

After the tree was cut the man came and picked us up in the tractor and took us back. We paid and left. It was a pretty fun day, and a neat experience! Despite it being a little cold for my liking!

The Lone Glove..

I love our tree and all if it's imprefections :D

Baby Fish

After my orange fish died last week.. I considered not getting any more goldfish.. so that when my white fish died, I could change it up and get regular tropical fish.. but my white fish was looking very sad and lonely. So, today after work.. I hit up good ol Petsmart and bought some new fish. 2 new ones - an orange one with black fins and a calico. The calico one we have named Specs and the orange one we are still working on a name for.

It's hard to take pictures of fish! but I did it. I also took a picture of my white fish.. so that you can see how super tiny the new babies are :D

Specs:

White fish:

Orange & Black fish: