It's New Years Eve! and I am thankful that this year over. 2008 was not a happy year. We lost a lot this year.... Starting in January, my dog Raven passed away. Just talking about her my eyes fill with tears. I miss her a lot.. she was such a good dog.. I'm not sure why she was taken from us so soon. I guess we should be thankful that we had 6 great years with her. About two weeks later in February.. my Aunt Clonda's Pug, Jordan, passed away.. that was definitely rough time in my mom's household. As time went on, it got a little easier.
Then April came, Diego and I receive the most exciting news... we were going to be parents. I was scared to death.. but excited as I could possibly be. From the day I found out, I began to worry.. what if it was too good to be true. I never really felt pregnant. I tried convincing myself that I'm just being silly and everything would be fine. With my luck, of course it wasn't fine.. not fine at all. I got the let down of my life. I found out exactly how traumatic a miscarriage really is. I always felt terrible for women who went through that sort of thing.. but I never knew what they actually went through.. now I do.
The summer months were a little rough.. I was completely jealous of every baby.. and every woman with a baby bump. I couldn't help but selfishly whisper to myself.. I hate you. Then I would just tell myself, that they very well could have gone through what I went through in the past. As time went on... I got better.. especially when people I really care about announced their pregnancies and/or had babies.. I figure everything happens for a reason and our time will come sooner or later.
October came.. and Diego lost his job. That was a little stressful, but has turned out to not be such a terrible thing. My cousin moved in, which helps... and we manage our money well, so everything is ok on that front.
Then November... the loss of Diego's grandmother, Modesta. It was very sudden, which made it that much more difficult to accept. It was such a hard time, especially since the holidays were right around the corner. I can't say that everyone is heeled.. or will be heeled anytime soon. Realizing everything she will not be here for, makes it extremely tough. We miss her terribly and wish she was still here with us.
2008 was not all bad news! I found out that all my families are expanding! My family, Diego's family.. and my family of friends! Starting back in March.. I found out that my friend, Brandy was expecting.. and Aliya joined us for Halloween! My best friend from Elementary, Kimberly, announced she was pregnant.. Jax Parker Jacobson will be here in April! Next I believe came my cousin Jennifer! Her boyfriend, John, purposed!! John and Lyla (his daughter) will now be a part of our crazy family!! Next up, our nephew Jackson.. bee-bopped into the house sporting.. a shirt that stated he was to be a big brother soon! Baby Girl Cohen will be here in May! Then it was Stephanie's turn! Yay! She's getting married too! Her and James will be tying the knot in 2010. Last but not least.. My friend Ashley announced (yesterday actually!) that her son Gavin was going to have a sibling!
Sooo... Here's to 2009! Please be better than 2008. Let the only loss be the bulge around my waist! Please make sure that everyone stays healthy and happy.. and if you could.. see to it that I too have receive a healthy bun in my oven :D
I wish everyone a Happy New Year!
Please be careful tonight and watch out for all those crazies on the road!
'til next year peeps! I'm Out!
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